Sunday, January 24, 2010

#373 - The good stuff & the deep stuff!

What makes me happy? Reading about another infertility blogger finally bringing home that much wanted baby. I don't know any of these ladies personally but feel connected through the infertility battle. I don't always get to comment however I keep watching and praying. I am not great for words and I don't like to provide advice I just like to let folks know I am thinking of them. I have only one thing to say... Hang in there.

I never believed that things happened for a reason until my boys came home. Then I knew why I had to go through everything I went through. I just had to wait for the right time. The right little bundles of joy were there I just had to wait until they were ready to come home with me. I must admit that I would have appreciated not trying for 11 years, but would I be the parent I am today? I think not.

So if you are still out there.. Hang in there. I can't tell you what the outcome will be or if it will be what you hoped for but I just wish you peace and a happy ending of some kind. I hope it all makes sense one day.

p.s. I still have this rotten cold... I am wishing it away right now... it was 3 weeks this past Friday since it started so I think it can go now!

Good Night

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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

#372 - Still Sick... still complaining! :)

I am sooo far behind that I think I may catch up with myself! :). I just seem to be getting sicker. I am hoping in the next few days this cold will start to go. I am trying to prep for a class this weekend and I am not even half done. I just don't have enough energy and I have been trying to sleep a bit during the day as I am not getting sleep at night, between the kids and myself!

When you are to tired to blog that is just plain annoying! Hope to be back into the swing of things soon!


Wednesday, January 13, 2010

#371 - Sad

I am so sad for all the people of Haiti, what a horrible tragedy. I hope they get the help they need and the supplies they need very quickly.

People are so quick to say nasty things about my American neighbours maybe they should take note that they stepped up as usual to provide support to people in need! Here's to all those that are trying to help out from all over the world!

My thoughts are with the family's that have lost loved ones...


Tuesday, January 12, 2010

#370 - Really?

Apparently it's my blogoversary today... wow! 4 years and counting... guess I am here for the long haul now!

I am still full of a stupid cold but I managed to get the following done today:
1) clean out 2 - 2 drawer filing cabinets, 2 boxes of files and one file box of files. Now everything in is in one Filing bucket! YAY! (But I have an entire box of shredding! - great! :)) The filing cabinets are going in the garage sale I am having this spring so that will make for a little more room in the house!
2) took the Christmas Tree down (finally... hey I have been busy! :) )

Now I just have to stop procrastinating and get back to working on my contract work and I need to get ready for my next class.

Now can someone tell me why it costs $20 to ship two markers to Canada? I wanted to get 2 copic markers from a site in the US but it costs more to ship them then to buy them... bummer

It was a busy blogversary day and I didn't even know it was a day to celebrate! (Hmphf... and I have wine in the fridge!)

Well I survived another drop off at play school. I had to leave with two boys attached to my legs (and when I say attached I mean ATTACHED). One of the teachers called me to tell me they were fine before I even got 4 steps away from the door (She didn't want me to worry and she wanted me to have a nice morning... what a sweetie. I think I am going to have to write the county a letter about what a great program this is when we are done) I spent my morning with a sick girly, rocking in the chair. (Now I know why people choose to have one child, it was bliss! :) ) The boys were happy to see me when I picked them up. They had fun until we got home, then it was time to try to make Mom feel bad. Little Monkeys! Oh yes and Boy1 told Grandma that I LEFT them at school.

Bummer. I interrupted Baby today. I found her getting the potty ready to use, when I showed up and asked her if she wanted my help she decided she didn't want to go. Miss Independent, makes me wonder if I had never walked by what would have happened?

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Thursday, January 07, 2010

#369 - Sick already?

I have been keeping out of trouble these days. I am all prepared for my next class that runs this weekend and I am busy working on the on-line site for the store that I work at. Oh yes and I trying to get the basement back together after the furnace install and clean some stuff out while I am at it. Since I didn't have enough projects on the go already!

Oh and I got a boxing day sale all setup yesterday. I got a new printer for printing on 12*12 paper. It was a really good price and they have been around for a while and have good reviews. Next time I am going to check into the price of ink cartridges first of all. I heard that it was going to be a little pricey but I almost died when I checked out the prices today! Well I am going to keep count of my pages and see how it goes. It's still cheaper than having them printed, thank goodness! :)

Hubby is back to working 5 days a week again... YEY! Going to looove that 20% pay increase, especially after Christmas! On a sad note a shop where he used to work decided to shut down and a bunch of his friends are going to be out of work at a bad time where there is no work. I don't envy anyone who looses their jobs, especially in this crappy economy.

Hubby just went back to work today (??? next time I am booking his vacation for him... why take all this time off in the winter when all you do is complain about having too much to do in the summer and no time off??? MEN! :) ) I am SSOSOOOOOO glad he is back at work, he is driving me nuts.

Monday was the first day of their pre-school program. There was 2 sick, snotty kids there... so all 3 of mine are now sick. And so it starts! :) I hope they build up their little immune systems quickly! Makes me very happy that I did get them the H1N1 vaccine.

OMG I was crying after I left them at the place. I didn't expect that, it's not even school. I am SOOOO dreading that day! I didn't think it would be so difficult to leave your kids with someone you don't know. It was a horrible feeling. I kind of snuck out on them too. (They were not impressed. The boys were not there regular self the rest of the day. They also would not admit to having fun and they just had sad little faces all afternoon. They were playing me, they knew I felt bad for just leaving.) I hate not know what things they did or how they did. Man it's tough to 'let go'. They told me they are not going back and that was not fun. Next Monday should be fun.

Who knew a 4 year old could be such a turkey? Boy2 was sad faced, complete with the lip sticking out all of the afternoon. So he was playing quietly and got really sad again. So I wanted to talk to him. I asked him what was wrong. He just looked at me with these puppy dog eyes and the saddest face you ever saw. (Don't feel bad for him just yet). So finally I got it out of him. He said he was scared at school. So I started telling him the usually mom stuff. Then the little sh*t starts laughing and says Sorry Mom. He was pulling my leg, playing me like a cheap violin. Four years old and he already knows how to yank my chain. I am so screwed! :)

Needless to say I hated that I couldn't be with them I also feel like it was very traumatic for them to be just 'dumped' off. I did feel bad about that part and I think it was very hard for them. Do they have to grow up so darn fast. I am just not ready for this school thing. Letting my sweet boys out into the real world just doesn't sound like a sane thing to do these days! :) I keep trying to be positive that this is good for them and that I can spend some special time with my daughter.

With that I am off to bed... good night!

Boy#2 said they have to go back to school because 'We live in a dictatorship and Mom's the boss!'

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Friday, January 01, 2010

#368 - How Pathetic

Well I am hoping everyone had a marvelous New Year's celebration.

I have been working all day and I am still working at 12:30am (sad and pathetic I know). Hubby went to bed at 10:30pm. I really wanted to get this course finished LAST year, but I guess it's to late now! I might as well put my sorry arce in bed now! (At least approximately 92% of my course materials are ready now)

It was a craptastic evening to go with my craptastic day. Hubby had a shore shoulder today so he was in a foul mood all day. Take some effing Tylenol and cheer up! He was barking at the kids when I was trying to work so I was trying to keep the peace. Then he felt a little better and he was in an even fouler mood as he didn't get anything done today. Lets just make everyone miserable then dear. On the bright side, it won't take much to make the start of the New Year a little better now will it?

Happy 2010!

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