After much thought...

I have decided that I need to move the kids. This is not acceptable behavior for a kindergarten teacher. Attempting to PUSH terrified children is not going to help my kids learn and grow. First thing tomorrow I am going to try to find them a new school... I am sad that I have to do this but I just don't think I can work with a teacher with the type of attitude that she has.

I am going to try to find a good place for them first... then meet with the principal. I have a bad past with our education system so I am really not looking forward to all this......

I will let you know what happens tomorrow after all the chaos... oh ya and in the middle of all this my 'part time job' has turned into total craziness.... I am also sicker than a dog.

Hmmpf, I thought I was just going to have to get used to my boys being away from me, I didn't think I would have to pull them out of their first school? Who hires these people anyway?

#387-Baaaaa

Well it just goes from annoying to more annoying! What a Craptastic Weekend... Between hubby yelling at me because the house needs cleaning and that I work is calling too much. (Duh I just installed a new system what the eff do you expect. I did warn you didn't I!) His latest is he throws things and yells at the kids if I am a) on the phone or b)on the computer. NICE! I am so stressed as I work when he is home and apparently he doesn't like that. Yes I have been busy lately and yes it will slow down after I get some stuff finished. I guess patience is not a virtue that he chooses! Yes the house is in need of some TLC... but I guess he forgot that I was sick for the first six weeks of the year then 2 weeks off then sick for another 2 weeks! WTF of course I am behind. And NO I am not just working in the middle of the night! Needless to say Friday night SUCKED... then I felt like crap all day at work on Saturday! I hate it when weekends SUCK!

I feel so attacked. This is what I do.... I was so incredibly proud of my latest accomplishment and I haven't even been able to enjoy it. No one that I know really understands what I accomplished either so I am pretty much alone in my joy, but the hubby managed to suck that out of me. :( So to my bloggy friends.... I did a good job please enjoy with me as no one else is!!! The sad thing is this is something I have always wanted to work on from when I got interested in computing.... and now it's just tears that I am left with. It's amazing how the loved ones around you can just suck the joy out of a person... :(

Well that about wraps up my weekend!

#371 - Sad

I am so sad for all the people of Haiti, what a horrible tragedy. I hope they get the help they need and the supplies they need very quickly.

People are so quick to say nasty things about my American neighbours maybe they should take note that they stepped up as usual to provide support to people in need! Here's to all those that are trying to help out from all over the world!

My thoughts are with the family's that have lost loved ones...

Are you freaking serious!

So it just goes to show some people just don't get it... My kids Christmas gifts arrived from some relatives this weekend... well guess what they were in a bag from Thyme Maternity. Excuse me while I throw up! (My Aunt probably got something for my newly knocked up Cousin's daughter for Christmas and yippee I got the bag) She had to quit school because she got PG...

I feel like I have just been kicked in the gut....

#347 - Yet another lovely day around here...

Well I think my parents have disowned me... why because I spoke up for myself. No more pushing me around and making me feel guilty for what they have done. I guess they don't like that. They think I tell everyone all sorts of 'bad' stuff about them and they 'hear' stuff all the time. Hmmm I think I talk about my kids all the time because ya know what Mom you are NOT the center of my universe my family is. Maybe if people from all over the place are tell you the same thing you should take a look at yourself??

I told my father that I am getting sick and tired of being blamed for what other people say. He told me it was too personal that I must have told these supposed 'people' 'things'. I of course have no freaking idea. My mother tends to bend reality and I am not even privy to the details so I cannot stick up for myself anyway. I said if I have said anything I am not apologizing for it because I was hurt. (Apparently their actions are all perfect I guess.)

I told him that based on what he has said he has no idea who I am (and obviously given that he was never around he has no idea what that woman has put me through). Not that they think they ever have done anything wrong. It just me I am the bad one cause I have said 'stuff' to people.

Hmm we never saw my dad's family because Mom had issues with his sister and his step mom (granted she was a little on the different side.)???

My kids deserve more, I deserve more and unless they can take responsibility for their own actions I am done with the crap. If they choose to not be in our lives it is there loss, all I know is the first time in my life I feel free. The thing is I didn't even say one eight of how I feel I only touched on a very few things. Maybe now there can be some peace because life is pretty good until she is around or calling.

Thanks for the support... you gals are the best and that's why I keep on blogging!

THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY
- my kiddos.
- my hubby, he is there for me when the going gets rough

THINGS THAT MAKE ME SAD
- the fact that parents think it's ok to treat me the way they have and do
- the only grandparents that can stand me are a 5,000 miles away.
- some day my kids are going to ask me why we don't go to grandma and grandpas anymore

#281 - So sad

I am sitting alone, the kids are asleep and the hubby took his folks to the airport. I am so very sad that they are going back home. In the 4 years that we have had kids this is the first time we have been able to get some things done around the house, play with the kids and visit. It was such a wonderful visit this time. Much easier than being at their house (probably because I had my own bathroom! LOL). The last time we were out the boys were 3 months old and we were still 'adjusting', so this time it was just a fun visit.

My entire life, before kids, I never really felt like I was part of any kind of family. When I am around my hubbies family I find out what it's like to be part of something that I never experienced growing up. I just wish they didn't live so darn far away. Even if it was a days drive it would be better.

They aren't really ones to go out of their routine much, my FIL has to keep busy, so hubby got to get a few things done. My MIL likes to keep busy too and her hobby is house chores (not my kind of hobby). She was always doing just the little things that help out so much. (Quite a difference from my mother who comes and makes a bigger mess!) It was like a mini vacation, a few house chores done, extra hands around the kids... I am somewhat overwhelmed by having REAL help for 2 weeks. Hubby and I really don't ever get a 'break', well unless you call work a break? Well it felt like a break from the craziness of the kids but with them here. I was wonderful and somewhat hard to explain.

Anyway they are off to the airport... and I am left here a sobbing mess... (being an emotional person SUCKS)

Wish us luck tomorrow when the kids realize Granny and Grampie have gone home. Baby wants Granny all the time I imagine she may have some issues tomorrow. If only Granny's hugs weren't closer!