Almost half way there...

Time for an update I suppose... I will be 20 weeks on Saturday, it's so hard to believe! I am getting bigger but I just feel like I am gaining weight I don't feel PG. I am feeling movement, a lot of movement but still I don't feel PG. I am still suffering from nausea on a frequent basis, yet it still hasn't sunk in that I am PG. We go for an U/S today, maybe then it will feel a little more real? I am nervous as this will probably be my last u/s for this PG. I think the monthly u/s's helped it become more real during my last PG, actually seeing the little monkeys instead of just knowing was helpful for me. After having 4 u/s's in the first 20 weeks, I can't imagine going another 20ish weeks with no u/s's!

I am still feeling a little better in the emotions department, thank goodness and I am coping with things (translation: mother) much better. I feel like the weight has been lifted off, instead I am just really tired, but that's to be expected. This PG is totally different than the last one, I thought it would be much easier with just one but it seems to be kicking me a lot harder this time. I have definitely noticed some changes from the last time. I had nicer hair the last time, my nails grew much faster and were much stronger and my psoriasis totally cleared up last time (not this time that's for sure!), my m/s went away faster and I was way to freaking happy the last time. I guess those extra hormones will be missed this time.

I seem to be having a hard time keeping up with my life these days. I am finding working is a little difficult this go around. I am so very tired to begin with, then I have to try to stay awake for an entire day with no naps! :) I have had to sick boys that are going through some kind of screaming phase for the last 2 months. Every night starting around supper time let the games begin. It has be very trying but I am hoping that they snap out of it soon. It so hard to deal with them so grumpy, especially when they aren't usually that way. As a parent I feel lost as to what to do as we have tried everything we could think of and nothing seems to work to well. Last night was finally a fairly good night so hopefully that will continue to improve as well. I must admit I love their smiling faces much better than those screaming ones. To make matters worse my husband has NO patience for the screaming so I am trying to calm everyone down, and explain to him they are just young and can't communicate very well yet. Still I would not trade them for anything. We are very lucky that we get to spend our time with them even if they are screaming monsters at times. I guess none of the good things are easy are they?

Quote of the day
Creativity is
inventing,
experimenting,
growing,
taking risks,
breaking rules,
making mistakes,
and having fun.
~ Mary Lou Cook