Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Yes I did it... POAS

Yes I caved and POAS... negative. Yes it may have been early but realistically it's probably over. I am going to wait to get to depressed until my blood test on Friday. I am going to hope for the best and prepare for the worst.

I would be ok with a failed cycle (well as OK as one can be) if I knew that there was still another chance, another cycle, some more frosties... Without the money to do another fresh cycle we are done. It just angers me that having another baby is all about how much money we can come up with.

Oh lovely on the news update they are talking about the 63 year old mom to be... it's pretty bad when a 63 year old can get PG and us younger folk have trouble. I wonder if she has $10 grand for me so I can do another cycle? LOL!

Oh and did I mention my friend that took a whole 3 months to get PG (she called me every month asking for my support because I must understand what she was going though) called me today. She hasn't called me since she go PG so why today? Did I do something this week to piss off the Karma gods or what? I got to hear about her wonderful PG and her 2 friends. It was such a nice chat. (add just a little sarcasm to that last sentence for me will you!)

I sure hope we get some good news around here soon for a few of us at least.

28 Comments:

At 12:10 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Thalia said...

I'm so sorry, Soralis, how incredibly disappointing. I wish this had had a different outcome.

 
At 12:25 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Sunny Jenny said...

Is it wrong to hate that 63 year old woman? Cause I do. I am so sorry your embies didn't stick.

 
At 12:27 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger One Mother's Journey said...

I'm really hoping it's just too early. I can appreciate how disappointed you must be. Uggh. It really sucks.

 
At 1:03 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Flygirl said...

I'm holding out hope. We DESERVE good news! It was too early to test. Right? Right!

 
At 1:15 p.m., May 16, 2006, Anonymous amanda said...

Damn evil pee sticks. I'm so sorry.

 
At 1:15 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Demeter said...

sweetie, it is too early to test. These frosties take longer to defrost and implant so to speak. Don't give up hope yet. Friday is still 3 days away. I am still hoping this will be a positive for you. Sending you sticky vibes!!

 
At 1:50 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Hopeful Mother said...

Soralis, I'm going to echo what has already been said here. Wait until Friday - I'm hoping it was too early to test.

Thinking of you and wishing for the best.

 
At 2:25 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Lindy said...

I'm so sorry for the negative. It's always so painful to see that even if you know it's still early days. And you do know that it's early.

And, my god, I can't stand it when people tell me they can relate to what I've been through because it took them THREE WHOLE MONTHS to get pregnant.

Thanks for your well wishes over at my place!

 
At 2:54 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger DD said...

You noticed, too, that there hasn't been an upswing in good news lately as well? It seems like for every 10 cycles, there's maybe 1 who gets a maybe out of it.

I'm still holding out a maybe for you on Friday...or how just a simple YES.

 
At 3:44 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Sunnie said...

Soralis, I'm sorry this didn't work out. I am going to POAS tonite then beta on Friday right along with you.

 
At 6:56 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger the_road_less_travelled said...

Hang in there. Hopefully it's too early and you'll get some good news on Friday. Hugs to you.

 
At 7:21 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger sube said...

I'm still holding out hope for you. Karma can't be that cruel.

 
At 8:17 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Courtney said...

I will cross my fingers that it is just too early for your test ... good luck Friday!

 
At 8:44 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Sarah said...

Oh Soralis, I am so sorry. I do hope that it is just too early and that the Friday result will be different. Still hoping for good news for you. xoxo

 
At 9:17 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Kimmer said...

I'm really hoping that it's just too freakin early. So sorry, Soralis. Hanging on for a nice beta for you on Friday.
So understand the anger when it comes to money also. It's just so unfair. But, insurance will cover Viagra! Where the hell is the justice in that... Just don't understand that bullshit at all.

 
At 11:17 p.m., May 16, 2006, Blogger Beth said...

"It just angers me that having another baby is all about how much money we can come up with. "

So very damn true - it sucks. I am sorry that the stick of doom wasn't putting out today - negatives always put a hitch in my giddyup. Thinking of you.

 
At 4:22 a.m., May 17, 2006, Blogger Meg said...

Soralis - I'm so sorry. I know how hard you were hoping for those embies. My love to you.

 
At 10:20 a.m., May 17, 2006, Blogger GLouise said...

Aww- shoot!

 
At 10:38 a.m., May 17, 2006, Blogger Just another Jenny said...

I am so sorry. I hate those awful pee sticks. I hope the test was too early. I hate that woman too, how come a 63yr can get pg and I can't? Just jealousy of course, I have no real opinion on the matter.

 
At 11:59 a.m., May 17, 2006, Blogger Dream Mommy said...

I'm so sorry. I'm praying it's a false negative. I wish I only had to wait 3 months to get pg.

It's sad that if we can't afford the 10-15k for IVF that we don't get to have children.

 
At 12:08 p.m., May 17, 2006, Blogger Alli said...

Ugh - I agree about the good news. We need it.

I'm praying for your positive test on Friday.

Clueless friends are frustrating - I can't believe she equated her 3 months to your struggle!! People don't seem to have any social skills.

 
At 4:54 p.m., May 17, 2006, Blogger Mary Ellen and Steve said...

I am so sorry Soralis, but I am still holding out hope that it was too early. My fingers are crossed for better news on Friday. Hugs!

 
At 9:48 p.m., May 17, 2006, Anonymous amy said...

I am hoping for you. Okay? But I do understand that feeling that you need to prepare for the worst. It goes along with that always waiting for the other shoe to drop feeling. If I had ten grand I would give it to you.

 
At 9:53 p.m., May 17, 2006, Blogger the waiting line said...

this sucks. I really, really hope it's just too early to test.

thinking of you.

 
At 2:56 a.m., May 18, 2006, Blogger Meri-ann said...

I sure do hope some good news comes your way as well, the evil pee sticks have a lot to answer for!

 
At 6:14 a.m., May 18, 2006, Blogger JEN said...

I'm thinking of you! I understand the pain you are in. I hope it's just still too early. Your in my prayers.

 
At 10:46 a.m., May 18, 2006, Blogger serenity said...

Oh Soralis, I am SO sorry about the BFN.

If there is one ray of hope I can provide (assvice coming your way) -for a FET, betas usually start lower and later... something about the defrosting process makes it so they take a little more time to implant.

So I am choosing to ignore that you got a BFN and am holding out hope that you just have slower implanters in there.

HUGS. Hang in there.

 
At 10:58 a.m., May 18, 2006, Blogger Heather said...

So disappointing. However, I'm still holding out hope that it was just to early.

One more day!!

 

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