I am so sick of...

Well yesterday it was snowing, today it is sunny and tomorrow it should be back to 20 degrees Celsius (not bad considering it was 1 degree Celsius when I got up this morning!)

So anyway this is yet another gripe session!

I am so sick of infertility(IF) (aren't we all thought)
I am sick of IVF
I am sick of waiting for treatment
I am sick of waiting during treatment
I am sick of waiting during the waiting during treatment
I am sick of the drugs
I am sick of the headaches from the drugs
I am sick of the wondering if it will work
I am sick of the dreaded 2 week wait
I am sick of the money that leaves my wallet to have a baby (I would rather spend it on a baby)
I am sick of the stupid people comments
I am sick of the waiting (ya that's a biggy for me... and the rest of the IF world too I suppose)
I am sick of the insensitive comments from my mother (she should know better!)
I am sick of doing laundry (just checking to see if you were paying attention still :) )
I am sick of the BFN's (there really should be more BFP's out there for everyone)
I am sick of the frickin statistics (Ok so apparently if each embie has a 33% chance of sticking, if you put 2 in then you have a 60% chance of getting PG... WTF you still only have 33% if you ask me!)
I am sick of having to know more about medical stuff than I should have to
I am sick of waiting for my clinic to return calls (Afternoon only)
I am sick of driving for 4 hours to my clinic
I am sick of driving myself crazy with what if's
I am sick of all the crap that goes with the 2ww (obsessive panty checking - thanks Jenny for reminding me! LOL), wondering about every twinge, etc, etc, etc)
I am sick of non-IF PG women
I am sick of going through IF thoughts on a daily basis
I am sick of planning for the next cycle just in case this one doesn't work
I am sick of the cooter cam
I am sick of HSG's
I am sick of someone else (ie. the dr) being the only one who has a hope in getting me PG
I am sick of being Unexplained, give me a damn answer!
I am sick of the government saying IVF is for 'enhancing fertility' (how the heck do you enhance something that doesn't work)
I am sick of people asking if I went through IVF or IF treatments
I am sick of having no control
I am sick of having IVF induced stress
I am sick of being IF me... I just want to be me
I am sick of being IF (but aren't we all)

I think that about covers it!

Update
WTF is wrong with people? I just had a call from an acquantance, I have blogged or shall I say b*tched about before. Ya she got PG the first month after going off the pill back in December. So anyway she moved away (I was happy about that), I thought that was the last I would hear from her. Freaking calling plans guess who called today! SB (stunned b*tch) called me to yammer on about her 2 year old and her PG. Ya she knows about our IF, I guess since we had success before that means that it doesn't hurt anymore! SB was mad that she got PG, hello you are talking to an IF'er here dumbo! She doesn't know that we are trying again and I sure as heck wasn't going to tell her either. She is 5 months PG and she is just starting to be happy about it, what is wrong with you. If I got PG even after I was "done" I would be so freakin happy cause every baby is a blessing... ubra fertile neighbour got PG for her 6th time (they weren't trying) and she said it wasn't an accident it was just another blessing. I thought that was kind of a cool way of looking at it! Back to SB, after 1/2 hour bitching about how hard PG is and how upset she was that she was PG I just couldn't take it any more and told her I had to go. You would think that given all the long
Uuuugg thanks for letting me unload!

FET Thoughts
Started the progestrone suppositories today... still got to get hubby to 'play' marbles! :) 2 more sleeps until ET! silences on my end that she would have figured that I wasn't really all that interested. Oh ya and guess what she feeds her 2 year old all the time Corn Pops and Eggo's French toast... Gee I wonder why the frig he is hyper all the time, try some fruit and veggies why don't you.

I am still upset by all this I have been crying since she got off the phone. Life just isn't fair sometimes, I know that but why the heck does it still hurt so much?
Then the dreaded 2ww. I would really like to thank Jenny for reminding me how much it sucks! LOL

Quote of the day
"A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step. "
- Unknown