Sunday, April 30, 2006

Is it Sunday already?

Well I am not sure where this weekend went? It was a busy one! I took everything out of every cupboard in the kitchen and cleaned the cupboards. I couldn't stand it any more it had to be done. A major re-org occurred too. Great I probably won't be able to find anything for the next year! Oh well at least it's clean.

Can you believe it's the end of April already? I would really like to know who keeps stealing the months and where they are putting them? I would like things to slow down just for a little while. (Well maybe after my 2ww is over with! Hmmm, I suppose those 2 weeks will be slow. Be careful what you ask for right.)

Well my hubby and I are going to be celebrating our 12 anniversary this month. HOLLY CRAP 12 years and we are still together and we still actually like each other. I guess I am lucky!

So what is going through my head these days? Well here it is.

Things I have learned from Infertility and IVF
1)Everyone is an expert on getting PG (ya dah like we know what to do)
2)It's not necessarily a good idea to tell some people you are going through IVF (ya the stupid comments can actually get stupider)
3)Patience is required (11 years TTC, now that is some serious patience)
4)I actually do have patience (ya see comment from #3)
5)MS Excel is great for charting all sorts of things including cycles and "getting busy" days (ya I actually have a chart with 5 years of cycles and "busy" days... how pathetic is that)
6)Spouses don't like giving a 'sample' (WTF? Have ya tried a cooter cam buddy?)
7)IVF is exhausting (I think that's the drugs)
8)I thought 11 yrs TTC was difficult, try a round or 2 of IVF (nothing can prepare you for IVF and I mean NOTHING, especially if a BFN is involved)
9)Adoption is an alternative (Especially after talking to wonderful adoptive parents)
10)You don't realize how miserable you were until a successful IVF cycle
11)The holy grail PG is not the wonderful thing you thought it would be (ya here comes another 9 or so months of questions and worries that you didn't realize you would have because you were so consumed with TTC before) Wish I could have enjoyed it more instead of worrying
12)IF is all consuming (working is just a distraction to keep you from going insane)
13)Secondary infertility does suck (didn't realize that when I was just hoping for one for so long)
14)IF people are the best people in the world
15)People say the stupidest things (why can't ya just shut-up? I have learned never to ask anyone if they are having kids or having second kids... cause you just never know)
16)Driving a long way for IVF sucks but it is good for your income tax
17)IVF is very expensive and the gov't doesn't care (sent a letter... don't ask)
18)In a pinch I can give myself a needle (ya that is something I always needed to know how to do!)
19)Cooter cams suck, but at least you don't need a full bladder (is it bad to be on a first name basis with your u/s tech)
20)The internet can be a helpful IF tool!
21)Taking meds on time IS important (nasal spray late = headache... ya that's something I will need to get me through the rest of my life! *insert sarcasm here*)
22)Cell phones with date books rock (how else are you supposed to remember to take all the meds)
23)I am stronger than I think (my really old baggage just doesn't seem to matter anymore... yey I finally dumped some of that sh*t!)
24)I am more superstitions now than before (oh great)
25)I take more control of my medical stuff... I don't just go with the flow anymore
26)A good husband is required (I have the best... well most days)
27)IF is a hard thing to get past n(Great bigger baggage!)
28)I speak-up now if something really bothers me (I pitty the next poor soul who decides to hand out some of the stupid advice that is out there, cause I got an answer for just about all of them... thanks gals! LOL)
29)Pain does get easier as time passes
30)There is life after IVF and IF
31)I am not alone (there is way to many people suffering with IF)
32)My car is too small (just wanted to see if you were still paying attention
33)The things that are hardest to 'get' are worth the most
34)The internet community can be a wonderful source for support. (you gals rock!)
35)IF sucks (nuff said)

FET thoughts
Baseline u/s tomorrow. I should have my dates tomorrow or Tuesday. Lets get this show on the road.

Quote of the day
"One rose says more than the dozen."
- Wendy Craig

(frig that give me the damn dozen! :))

Warning kids discussed
Well the colds are starting to clear up a bit, I am hoping by the end of the week both boys will be better.

Sometimes I just sit and watch in amazement at the things they can do. It is truly amazing to watch how a little one picks up a block and turns it around to look it over. I never realized the coordination required to pick up a cheerio. I never knew just how difficult it is to sit up, much less stand and take a step. The amazement of forming a word. In some ways I am somewhat grateful that we did have a struggle (although a shorter struggle would have been fine too!) to have our tiny ones. I am not sure if I was younger and had not fought so hard to have them that I would have spent so much time being amazed by them. I never knew what I was missing I never knew how wonderful it would be to watch them grow from small helpless beings. I never know how small they could be and how quickly they would grow. I could not imagine life without them

The best to everyone
Good night


At 8:14 a.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger Sarah said...

I love your list-you've included some great advice! Your husband is very lucky to have someone like you. Wishing you all very best for your anniversary this month. Hopefully you will find some time to do something special!

At 8:19 a.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger One Mother's Journey said...

Happy Anniversary and congrats on your clean cabinets. Anytime you're looking for more to do...I've got plenty here to keep you busy.

At 9:03 a.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger Beagle said...

Happy anniversary!

We remodeled our kitchen lasst summer and I still can't find certain things!

Glad the boys are getting over the colds. I think it found me though.

At 9:40 a.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger Angie said...

Happy Anniversary this month! I love your list! I think EVERYONE should read it!
Hope your u/s goes well!

At 11:21 a.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger Flygirl said...

Great list! This IF community has helped me tremendously. I still feel alone a lot of the time but it helps to know that I don't have far to look to know that I'm not.

At 12:47 p.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger Alli said...

Just wanted to tell you that your post today has really inspired me and made me laugh on a morning i needed it! Every time i read someone else's story, i feel a little less alone. Thank you, from a complete stranger! lol.

At 2:35 p.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger Just another Jenny said...

I like your new header, very pretty.

The only one I disagree with is the hubbie giving the sample. Mine loves the office porn - says it's the "hard core" stuff. We don't have any at home so it's his little treat.
I do love your list. I was wondering if someday I would look back and thing "man, I was miserable during IF" but right now the feelings seem so normal.
I didn't realize about the driving costs being tax. deductible. I only have an hour each way but I should look into it - anything I can get them to cover. Thanks for the heads up.

At 5:55 p.m., May 01, 2006, Blogger Sunnie said...

You hit all of these right on the nose, honey!

At 11:00 a.m., May 02, 2006, Blogger Rumour Miller said...

I have to agree with you. The long wait for our babies has given us something that cannot be attained any other way.

God has singled us out for a special treatment. God meant for us to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in our arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink we have ever known.

We would never choose infertility.
But we believe that a fertile couple could never know the joy that awaits us.


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